Train of Thought #5 - Time For Change

Written April 29th, 2023 at 12:40 am. Published March 23rd, 2024

Part of the “Train of Thought” series. See that link for more information

I’m ready for change. Like big change. I want culture to change. I’m tired of this culture of being only half committed to church. We need to act like the real church. I think church should take up a large part of our lives.

I’m tired of only going to church twice a week. I wanna live there. I wanna be able to serve each other constantly. I want to be able to worship with others more frequently. God doesn’t deserve three hours a week.

We should live as missionaries for our area. If you were on a missions trip what would you be doing? Is it what you’re doing right now? We are on a missions trip to our local community. Right now

Is this unreasonable? Is this too much? It’s a lot to ask. God does ask for our whole life though. We have 200 attendees at our church weekly, we should be able to do so much. Even with half of that.

Honestly I’m tired though. I’m tired of trying to change. There is a part of me that just wants to stay and ignore everything. But I can’t do that. I can’t ignore the world. I can’t stay still. I can’t not fight.

I’m fighting for multiple things right now. I’m fighting for myself, I’m trying to find healing from things that I’ve been dealing with. I’ve also been fighting for the people around me. I’m trying to organize a worship night. I want to help the Christians in this area.

I have support. I’m realizing that my parents and my uncle are extremely behind me. I think they all want to see change in me and especially in this area. I’m thankful for them. I want to find more people who are behind this idea of changing ourselves and changing the world.

I’m struggling though. It’s not easy. He never promised it would be, but I wish it was. It’s worth it though. Jesus you don’t work through the easy things. Thank you for giving me this opportunity. I trust you to use it for your glory.

I want a passion for Christ like nothing else. I’m not great at speaking passionately but for Jesus I want to.

I feel like the time is right for change. I don’t know why, but I know God is moving. When he moves, he moves.