Train of Thought #4 - Writing

Written March 27th, 2023 at 12:30 am. Published March 23rd, 2024

Part of the “Train of Thought” series. See that link for more information

Why do I do this? Why do I write in this “journal”. I do it because it helps me. It helps me a lot. It’s basically like someone to talk to especially since I’ve been struggling to build deep friendships.

I also really enjoy reading back through everything. It’s like a history of my thoughts. Sadly a lot of them have been bad and sometimes I wonder what people I know would think if they read my journal cause I think I generally seem fairly put together.

This journal is an outlet for me. A place where I can express my frustration. A place where I can express my true deepest self with all the struggles that I have. I guess I’m too afraid to do that with anyone I know.

It’s also a place for me to just think about stuff (like right now). I don’t need a purpose to write. I just like writing and I know I’ll read it in the future. It’s like writing to future you.

It’ll also remind me that in the past everything wasn’t always perfect cause often we remember things as better than they were. But here I record my raw thoughts in the moment and I’ve had a plenty of bad ones.

Alright I’ve got to go to sleep (didn’t get enough sleep last night) and my eyes can’t like focus anymore.